I have holidays and somehow its reall boooooooooring...

today and yesterday I playes anno 1602

I know its old... really old...

and I have to write a 5 page stuff about haenyo

but I am to lazy

-___-;

anyway I got my driving license last week

*congratulation*

hehehehe~

but I don't habe a car .__.

so... it really doesn't matter

I finished XD~

and I am feeling well?

somehow?

why?

maybe because the last book was so bad, so worse that it makes it unbelievable? XD~

maybe...

I don't know...

I think the ending was ok

I don't hate it and thats all the end can expect from me because I never like endings...

and I read some Amazone reviews and it seems a lot of people hate the 4 book

ok... not hate, hate is a strong word but they don't like it

I mean how could she get pregnat? and the disturbing birth scene, the imprint on a baby and the not starting fight with the Volturi...

how? XD~

its so unreal that I am feeling better

I think I will read the books again when I am not single and not alone...

and I think I will not read any lovestory...

because it reall hurts

P.S. I watched the movie

I don't like it as expected but I like Rob

I don't like him as edward but I like him as Rob ^^

somehow my heart hurts much the last two days...

I am not hungry and I can't sleep well even I am tired...

I don't feel well at all

I am feeling lonly again

I hope this feelings gone disapear after I finished Breaking Dawn

but I don't believe that

I read it...

how? I bought it .___.

and I am out of money because of it -___-

 as always after reading I am really...

unwell? not unwell I am just a little bit tired because I couldn' sleep because I was unsteady?

I can't describe it in words...

I am just thinking to much, the book remebered me that maybe there is love you know the really true love that one that makes you die for him/her...

right I am just happy if I can talk to a somehow goodlooking and nice guy...

I am not in love with anyone and I am feeling really lonley because I am often alone

I am living with a friend but I don't see her often and right now she already went back home

right now I am feeling really lonly because I read this so hearttaking lovestory about edward and bella... how could I not be affected?

what they have its so unbelievable I can't even dream about it...

I mean I would even be happy if its just love but love never comes fast for me...

because I am not a person for love at first sight...

I fell in love because of the chracater...

I fell attracted to a lot of things like smile, eyes, mouth, face, body and even style but I am not in love with them I think...

I just stare at there beauty wouldn't you do the same?

I can't conentrate 

can't sleep

can't eat

can't think about anything

after I wrote everything down because I thaught it would help I am felling even sadder

near tears

feeling really lonely and unsure if there is really such love?

is there?

I have never seen it so strong like now it these books maybe because real love doesn't have so many obstacles?

I wish my spring would come soon...

I wish my love would come soon...

I will try hard to wait...

oh I think I am starting crying...

I am not strong enough

I have much to learn

my heart hurts... i think... I think I do not fell well

I am not feeling well...

first because I have my period and its killing me

second because I read Twilight and

I sooooooo want to read New Moon and Eclipse

I could die...

really die

the book is great and I have fell in love with edward and even with bella

and I really want to know what happens with them how there love turn out and everything

and I am asking what does bella do if she is bleeding?

I mean she is bleeding every month right?

don't they see each other?

or what does all the vampire does when a women is near who is bleeding?

can't they smell it?

isn't that somehow a funny thing to think about?

XD

I know I am crazy... but courios too

I bet we never will know this because I can't ask edward or bella or any Vampire

expect someone know one? XD

would you pleas ask him

thanks