my current nick names jis -shi Jisssh ( my friends are not so good in english its ok ) ( look at my name yea.. ) hikari , ( japanese name for light ) unneee " or dong seng .. hello kitty ..anything honestly , ;P i really dont know what to say , honestly i dont have a reason to lie , my best friends are kibum kim , yonna, stella kim and donghae ( for the ones that know korean music ) im 23 , i live in new jersey ... i have mayy friends all over the world , i love to read manga i love chinese/korean/japanese drama , i love video games im still that kid on the inside or that or im a nerd and proud , i hate people that smoke ( not the person just the smoke ) and drinkers , i dont go to clubbing and or smoke , im shy around people i dont know , i like going to new york :] with my friends at least , not by my self. . hmmmm im out goingly friendly i dont always seem like i am ... hmm im shy :) i dont like always beeing around people i dont know , hmmm my question to world why are some guys** such jerks :} if your a player DONT even bother talking to me ... save your bs for another chick. im not exactly a girly girl , i dont really like the mall unless i have a reason to be there , the only place in the mall i will ever shop at is pac sun. hmm for more about me just talk to me , i love making new friends , :) but im sorry if you hurt or piss me off im fawking blocking you! -.- i hate stupid people hmm when i was younger my mother never wanted anything to do with me , i was neglected and beaten alot , she threw me to the doctor lying her assh off because she did want me. so for 9 years ( when i was 12 ) all i heard was shee t , like i hate you why are you here why cant you ugo to a friends house , please get out my face go in your room and play ,i hope you die in your room and never come out ! i blame you for everything wrong in this family , why cant you live with a friend , always talkin sheeeet to piss me off its how she gets her self off , wanting me to hate life sorry i dont i hate her and i never will love her , you can jugde me all you want its your own oppion but i wont jugde you untill i know you . always tried to cut me from having friends , always tried to mentally control me , when i was 20 i had a sheeeeet boyfriend too.. uused me for money and played and cheated , at that point i think i snapped thank god for that 1 friend i had he showed me that i need to realize many things to protect my self , which i did. and because of him im a better person , yet because of women aka my crap mother. i am how i am this point of time. my childhood is non existant more like i want to be able not to remember the pain i been threw and still do , expt i know how to deal with it , although sadly its hard for me to trust anyone i meet because from my scars , i look at the way people act and talk and personality before i get to understand them , then i think if i should trust them. it may seem cold hearted but its the truth.. yea i know i can cold hearted sometimes , but its because people have hurted me in the past, let alone my own. . its like they say " better to have loved than none at all " theres one thing i must say , i hate players omg you all can die , even though you say you changed i dont really believe you. its all just a game to have people trust you. ok ok i know this is stupid , but think im azn , im not. i am me.. love me or hate me its your choice , ive meet my best friends threw the internet , and there my real life b est friends . my favorite place in the worlds are tokyo , in shuibuya omg yes japanese guys are hot, but i love korean guys too there pretty and chinese guys , ( im not crazy ) i mean im sure you all can tell i like azn bois, ya its true. i really dont like white guys cuz they dont spark my interest what so ever , .. which is why i want to have like 3 jobs to have alot of money and move away ,i been to hawaii cuz my cousins live there :) there flip/a little chinese and italian ( im italian and french ) umm i have a aunt shes chinese shes from hong kong shes my favorite :) i been to japan and loved it. honestly one day i want to travel the world. although its like i think whats the ppoint sometimes , i really wanna move to korea , my best friends live there T_T!! ya ya you can believe me or not thats there famous i dont care , but in my heart there real. and im sure nobody even reads this lol so ya