[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you have sex with me? (No need to answer this lulz)
[13] Would you marry me?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are we close?

What if:
[1] I committed suicide?
[2] I said I liked you?
[3] I kissed you?
[4] I lived next door to you?
[5] I started smoking?
[6] I stole something?
[7] I was hospitalized?
[8] I ran away from home?
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there?

What do you think about my:
[1] Personality?
[2] Eyes?
[3] Face?
[4] Hair?
[5] Clothes?
[6] Mannerisms?

ALRIGHT! I've discovered SHINee! They are some of the most ADORABLE boys i have ever seen (SuJu is still my #1 though...) and i can proudly say i have their whole discography up to this point! But something is bugging me...

Most of the members are under 18. I'm nearly 20! And what's worse, i've been reading Heechul/Taemin fics!

I feel dirty. I need a bath.

Or to meet Siwon.

Yeah.

The best way to start a new year is with a break-up. Make sure that when it happens to have someone you can rely on to be there for you. To hold you through the night as you cry and feel your heart literally break into pieces.

I have Shane...I have Super Junior...

I have a new Year's resolution.

I will go to Korea and meet Super Junior. I will meet all of them, and i will try my hardest to hug them as well...especially Siwon. They don't know it, and they probably never will, but they have helped me so much through all this crap in my life.

And Shane. My personal man-servant Yesung lookalike. I love you man. I really do.

I'm not going to sugarcoat it guys.

I'm more than likely going to go downhill from here. For those who don't know, i have breast cancer. The day before yesterday i got really sick and was rushed to the hospital. It turned out that lack of sleep, stress and malnutrition were the causes and they were going to release me until they took a scan to make sure i was okay.

Apparently my cancer has progresed. It really, REALLY sucks to be me right now, which is lying in the hospital room worrying about how many more days i have left.

Don't know why but i'll leave this here;

If i go before i meet Super Junior, i would like them to know that i love them and they're helping me through this with their music. Please continue to care about your fans the way you have been. Thank you for being here for me.