Yeah, what a day at church it was. Prayer was intense, but not in the way it once was. I feel as though I have lost something special, something dear to me, and that is the strength of the relationships I once held so close and dear. It is almost as if I don't know how to walk anymore, and especially run, knowing that I will stumble. One thing I know though is that God is still there, and really, has never stepped away; nor have I really, I have been meant to experience these trials as they have given me some wisdom which I seriously hopes become more than knowledge , but a 'mark' upon my heart. I am confused and lost, aimless and without goal, yet I still continue on. God will help me, but it is not easy. I fear making the wrong decisions in life, but also know that God is bigger than me or my mistakes, and He can make and turn anything bad into good for His glory.