I have been taking guitar lessons for the last week, and it has been an awesome time. Knowing I am going to be leaving soon on missions work, and being quite a devoted Christian himself, my teacher has been putting me through some very fast paced lessons. I have musical experience from being in the band for as long as I was, which is one reason why I can go through such a fast paced lesson schedule. We have almost literally gone through 8 weeks of lessons in 1 week, learning the G scale and all it's modes (which in a sense, is all the scales on the guitar with some minor changes made). We are planning on one more lesson to finish the modes for the scales, and then we are going to spend a lesson on song writing, chord construction (not the use of triads to make a chord, but special chords), and some more advanced technique. Not bad I say, especially since I have only been playing for 4 months, and yet I have learned stuff that people don;t generally get into until they have been playing over a year (most people in general, although there is always the exception). This has been the best money spent in a long time, and it seems I am meant to be playing this guitar, which I will use to bring glory and honor to God alone!

I am going to have some new pictures up son with me and my new guitar; which is much needed. I haven't quite named this guitar yet, and I am still thinking up a name, or rather letting it just come to me. Yeah, I will let ya'll know when I get them up!

I know there is something more, but God, I am so weak in my flesh. I don;t know where to turn or how to walk anymore it seems. I don;t know where to go on this path you have laid before me, I am walking by my own power and will, this flesh of mine has become more important to me than Your will. Forgive me for this great evil, this idolatry of self-life that I have been living. It seems I can't even open my mouth and pray anymore like I once did, but I fear nothing, knowing You are there. It is upon you I rely, upon You I trust, and upon You will I rest; but I need Your help to do these things. I cannot seemingly do it on my own anymore. I have always and will always trust in You and Your will for my life and ministry, and once again give You full reign in my life and ministry, to move and act through it as You see fit, not as I would like to see done. The desires of my heart You know, and You do not ignore them if they are good, but one thing You require is obedience and a willingness to place Your will above my own. I have nothing to say other than, 'Help me my God, help me to walk strong, nay, to run with the strength of an eagle and the speed  of the wind!'

Well, I use to be quite strong in the prophetic anointing, yet the past month of trials and struggles have apparently taken its total. I will not allow this to be the end though, I will rise back up, I use to be able to sit down in front of a blank screen for writing and see something from God flow freely. I seriously need to find myself in a state of stability again, to be accountable to those to whom have been placed over me faithfully, and to seek His face like no other. To seek Him like I never have before, and then, then will I walk in the power and anointing of the prophetic again; and this time even more so than ever before. It will not happen without a price being paid though, the price of self-sacrifice, and earnestly following after Him once again.

I started a new club, or what I am use to calling groups from MySpace, that I will use a ministry to network together intercessors and prayer warriors from all around the world. This group is not yet active and not accepting membership, but it is nevertheless ready for my attention when the time comes.