You know that song by Keri Hilson? Energy is it? Yeah... I'm guessing that's the title.

"I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
Cuz I put too much energy in him and me
Can't wait til I get through this phase
Cuz it's killing me too bad we can't re-write our own history
Such a mystery when he's here with me
It's hard to believe i'm still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain't how it's supposed to be..."

...This love is taking all of my energy...

Clearly, I know I want to be with him... But this sh*t always happens to me. How bad was I in my life before to deserve so much loneliness? Am I really bound not to be in a fairy tale love story? Or sadly... I'm just not destined to be the lead of that fairy tale. I guess all I have for me is my imagination. Something that I can at least count on when I need it... Something that makes me feel a tad bit better than I originally am.

If anyone's out there willing to save me from the ocean that keeps pulling me in... Please do. I don't know how much more I can stand alone. And giving my all... Especially when no one even wants it.