I can only do so much as one individual against the society, system , and the goddamn life itself...what do you do when your world start to close down on you constantly without any break for you, I have lost my love...

Here I love you.
In the dark pines the wind disentangles itself.
The moon glows like phosphorous on the vagrant waters.
Days, all one kind, go chasing each other.

The snow unfurls in dancing figures.
A silver gull slips down from the west.
Sometimes a sail. High, high stars.

Oh the black cross of a ship.
Alone.
Sometimes I get up early and even my soul is wet.
Far away the sea sounds and resounds.
This is a port.
Here I love you.
Here I love you and the horizon hides you in vain.
I love you still among these cold things.
Sometimes my kisses go on those heavy vessels
that cross the sea towards no arrival.
I see myself forgotten like those old anchors.
The piers sadden when the afternoon moors there.
My life grows tired, hungry to no purpose.
I love what I do not have. You are so far.
My loathing wrestles with the slow twilights.
But night comes and starts to sing to me.

The moon turns its clockwork dream.
The biggest stars look at me with your eyes.
And as I love you, the pines in the wind
want to sing your name with their leaves of wire.

people have different values in their lives and keep trying to live their lives the way they think it's right...Morally or legally but where is the standard? Everyone cheat and lie and steal....

I can't change the world, but I sure don't look down on people because of their status in life, money or job...

but people with money and good jobs, have the tendency to judge people so quickly and put them down...It is not about where a man stands, it is about how far he came from where he started...

I feel so sad....

I hate myself.....

I wish I can just go...