If you only knew,
I'm hanging by a thread,
The web I spin for you.

If you only knew,
I'd sacrifice my beating heart
Before I'd lose you.

I still hold onto the letters you returned.
I swear I've lived and learned.


It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
If you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted all the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go even when you're gone

I don't regret any days I spent,
Nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent.


It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
If you only knew.
If you only knew.

I still hold onto the letters you returned
You help me live and learn

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep,
Without you next to me,
I toss and turn like the sea.
If I drown tonight bring me back to life.
Breathe your breath in me.
The only thing that I still believe in is you,
Believe in is you,
I still believe in you.
Oh oh whoa oh
If you only knew 

hokays this will be my first proper entry since eons ago.

things have certainly changed considerably.

i've got a new job. it's what i really want to do. i hope to be able to do my best for the jobs on hand and the jobs in time to come. i know peak will be super tiring and all but i'm prepared for it. i know it's hard here, but i know, somehow someway, i'll make it through. life's full of ups and downs, challenges and all. we, humans are ever adaptable and ever changing, so that's why i know, i'll make it through, no matter what.

i know i told someone that "losing you is something i cant handle". yes, it's true to a certain extent. i still think i cant handle my loss of you but what made me change my mind about this is... how u've treated me.

no matter how busy one gets, a text or an offline message on msn is never too hard to do. that's what i believe. no matter how busy am i, i WILL make time for my family and friends. time can be managed. it always can. and it's not that things have to sacrificed in order to get something. sacrificial acts may or may not be a necessity. it's how things are perceived. all in all, everything's up to oneself.

like you said, i can just go ahead if i find someone new or better. i cant say for sure if i have, but what i know is, my choice is clear and i've decided.

life's a long journey. i cant say for sure if the current step i took is correct or wrong or whatsoever, but what i know is, i'm happy now. i really am. (:

You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there by your side
It's so hard to be here so far away from you
I'm counting the days till
I'm finally done
I'm counting them down, yeah, one by one
It feels like forever till I return to you
But it helps me on those lonely nights
It's that one thing that keeps me alive

Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside
We hang up the phone without saying goodnight
Because it's the sound of your voice that brings me home
It's never been easy to say
But it's easier when I've gone away

Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

What I'd give
What I'd do
Knowing I'm not there for you
Makes it so hard to leave
What I'd give
What I'd do
Anything to get me home to you
And this time I'll stay

And you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

A partnership that's founded on a deep sense of trust is truly a prize. When you're with someone because you want to be, not because you feel weak or needy, that's a relationship you want to have forever.

Brian: Did I hear you right?
'Cos i thought you said,
Lets think it over.
You have been my life,
And I never planned,
Growing old without you.

Shadows bleeding through the light,
Where the love once shined so bright,
Came without a reason.
Don't let go on us tonight,
Love's not always black and white,
Why haven't I always loved you?

Delta:
And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Brian:
I would change the world,
If I had a chance,
Oh won't you let me.
Treat me like a child,
Throw your arms around me,
Oh please protect me.

Both: Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts.

Brian: Oh havent I always loved you?

Delta: And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Delta: Oooh oh

Both: Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts

Brian: Haven't I always loved you?

Delta: But when i need you,
You're almost here

Brian: Well I never knew how far behind I left you

Delta: And when I hold you,
You're almost here

Brian: Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

Both: And now I'm with you,
I'm close to tears

Brian: 'Cos I know I'm almost here.

Both: Only almost here