everything begins with a smile.

so smile! it does us wonders (:

n yes.. in doing so, my emoness is gone! (:

hokays. there's an utmost need for this entry.

it is to clear the air as to what has been happening that caused all the "emo" nics on facebook.

one of the reason is the stuffs and all that i face at work. these are just day to day stuffs that wells.. every other person will face at work. so yeahs.. yes, it's affecting me. but.. i will get through and out of it, eventually. so yeah.. just let me be emo over it for awhile and i will get out of the rut at the end of it all.

okays. next. this irritates me.

i dont like pushy people. if you like, it means you like. stop forcing people to like you. it doesnt work that way. you cant make people like you.

i'm just as nice to everyone around me i guess. not just to you alone. please do not misunderstand.

sometimes it's not about open-mindedness of meeting new people. even if you meet someone with an open mind, when both of you cant click. you simply cant click! do not assume that if you can engage the girl in a conversation it means it's a total hit-off. it doesnt work that way. communication takes time to build. all in all, just please do not assume and arrive with your own conclusions. it's really tiring. it's putting me through hell. please just realise.



okays those aside.. arghs!

i went to the temple alone today. just felt that i need a trip there to probably help me clear my mind n all.. and yes, i've been thinking alot lately. of stuffs and life in general.

i've seen passings again. am less emo when i see such now. so yeahs.. am hokays..

it's just that each time i visit the temple alone, it reminds me how "long" the road that leads to the temple is. i used to have you with me when we go together. i've never realised it is so hard walking there again and again without you by my side. it was you who brought me there as a baby and so that started my "fate" with this temple.

dear gm, i'm sure you are better off now, somewhere, somehow. i'll be fine at the end of it all. because life is as such. the ups and the downs, we just have to take them as they come. friends alone cannot understand the stuffs i go through. it's hard not to have you with me. each time i blog about you, i tear. cos i really treasure our lives together. i miss you.

there's just this someone who handled me the way you did. maybe that's why he's special to me and to that someone, like what i said that night, "losing you is something i cant handle". that line still stands. maybe it wont one day, but it still stands as of now. doubt that line will never not stand that way. lead your life the way you want. you'll get to where you want eventually. have some faith and believe in yourself. humans are versatile and adaptable to our surroundings. we always get through our adversities. i will get out of my adversities eventually too. maybe you're reading, maybe you're not. oh wells.. yeah..

i dont know what i really want in life as well.. so.. just let me have sometime to think things through.

dont force me too much. it's getting harder and harder to breathe.

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turn around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

After all this why
Would you ever want to leave
Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go

That I loved you more
Then you will ever know
And part of me died
When I let you go



each time i think about it, it will never fail to occur to me that meeting you at her place one year ago was probably the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me, by far. i guess.. it's how you handle me.. it's not just the feelings we talked about. i guess the real reason is the way you handle me. it's extraordinary. (: