love makes me sick at all times. perhaps im not really lucky when it comes with love. i have been looking high and low for it, and i dont know where to find it. is this the price i have to pay? i loved, i wasnt loved. do you think my decisions were so stupid enough that i deserve these things? do you think i have to endure all the pain im now suffering. ? do you think i can still find the person that i have been looking and longing for? and do you think if that time i still know how to love.? i have been risking all my love just to find true love? and just to find somebody who will appreciate me as me? and somebody who will be with me until the end of time.... right now, im confused with so many things, everything.. please, whoever can read this article can please help me

Dear Lord God.
despite problems that come my way. im still happy that i am alive and still struggling for a happy life. i maybe happy but im not. i have many loads on my shoulder but i remain strong.. i keep on holding on you and i know you wont lead me astray. please dont let me go to the wrong path. keep my family in good health and my friends. withouth them, i woudnt be  this strong. and despite everything, please take good care of my father.. i always know there is still a room for change. i love you lord God..