i don't know what i'm feeling today..

i never felt so much confusion as this right now... and in the middle of the night!


i dare not bring this topic up either.. coz no one will understand my feeling.
i also don't want to be a nuisance to those people surrounding me with smiles on their faces when they talk to me.. i don't wanna be a burden tp them.


..but i don't want to burden myself either.



today, my friend from HS, aisha, and i had a talk until 2 in the morning..
we rarely talk but still i'm glad that she's going through the phase i am going through..
we both were in the brink of losing our minds if we ever bought the things that trouble us, up. laughing our way to it even if it's not a funny matter.........


luckily, i'm minus one on the lovelife part.. and i'm happy to that.
i don't want my life to be any more complicated than this.

or am i just asking for it?

i don't know..


i feel so tired.
i know i shouldn't say it, but i do am.



and i am ready for someone to scold me after this. T^T

insomnia.

the result of having high blood sugar, drinking too much caffeine, tea and carbonated drink.


duration: since 2004 up until now.

solution: to tire myself out or bang my head again the wall.









i'm having another attack right now. please ignore. ^________________^