i should say, it's unbelievably hot at this part of the world when my nose is supposed to fall off anytime now...

anyways, for the past few days, i have been hyped up for no reason at all...

putting a new dancing show on every night class i have, in front of our homeroom teacher, made me the cheerful class president wacko...

humming and paying no attention whatsoever on chinese class, when at the last test i failed happily on this subject, i was branded as the most insane happy person alive inside the class, making dead people alive...

there are the minor complications of trouble i see up ahead but for once, i'm not overly depressed about the future for now...

my daily horoscope: "others maybe making more of a splash than you right now, but would you really want the kind of attention they're bidding for? your true heart and solid self are far more winning to the right people in the end."

hmmmmmm...

all i can say is, it's my true self i'm projecting this time round alright.

what seems to be a part of me before, has disappeared forever...

i smile, i laugh, i dance, i sing... but i just can't full up the emptiness that is now inside my heart... what seems to be on the outside, is really the total opposite appearance of my soul..

i tried to be happy for you... and i tried to be happy for me... because you finally found what you are looking for... ... ... ...but i can't help it when tears fall to my pillow every night when i remember seeing you with her...

but there is nothing else i can do... i can't stop you for falling for her and i can't stop myself for falling out of you coz i have no right position to be so...

i'm not her... never will i ever be pretending to be like her, and maybe that's why you won't love me... but at least i know, that i need someone who will love me and accept me for being me...

maybe this where i bid you goodbye... maybe i have to pack up all our memories together in a box and burn them outside... all the things you said to me... all the laughs we shared... santa, is not worthy of me so i have to send him far where someone deserves him more than me...

...someday, i'll be able to see the snow.

...someday, i'll be able to fly far far away from here...

...someday, when i don't remember you... ... ... that's when i'm free.

to house... my dear lil brother who thinks he's mr. macho guy. LOL

here are 15 signs which would tell you that you like someone... some may not be applicable this time but if you need them, they're just right here for you to read... :)

15. YOU THINK OF ANY EXCUSE JUST TO TALK TO THEM

14. U LOOK @ THEIR PROFILE/PICTURE CONSTANTLY

13. WHEN YOUR ON THE PHONE WITH THEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP,, YOU STILL MISS THEM EVEN WHEN IT WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

12. YOU READ THEIR TEXTS or IMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

11. YOU WAlK REALLY SLOW WHEN YOU'RE WITH THEM.

10. YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER YOU'RE/THEY'RE AROUND.

9. WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM, YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME.

8. YOU SMILE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.

7. WHEN YOU lOOK AT THEM, YOU CAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM//HER. (true~~ in a deeper sense...)

6. YOU START THINKING ABOUT THEM WHEN LISTENING TO SLOW OR SAD SONGS. (especially when you just broke up *sniff*)

5. THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

4. YOU GET HIGH JUST FROM THEIR SCENT. (p'iong tae~~~ kkk.)

3. YOU REAlIZE THAT YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.

2. YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM. (do anything... like wait for them~ LOLz)

1. WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME... (i know who that is~~)

house, i just want you to know that your b.i. (bad influence) noona is always right here for you, so if you have a problem just email me and i'll pop your balloons for you~ LOL

al at jji? ^-^