what seems to be a part of me before, has disappeared forever...

i smile, i laugh, i dance, i sing... but i just can't full up the emptiness that is now inside my heart... what seems to be on the outside, is really the total opposite appearance of my soul..

i tried to be happy for you... and i tried to be happy for me... because you finally found what you are looking for... ... ... ...but i can't help it when tears fall to my pillow every night when i remember seeing you with her...

but there is nothing else i can do... i can't stop you for falling for her and i can't stop myself for falling out of you coz i have no right position to be so...

i'm not her... never will i ever be pretending to be like her, and maybe that's why you won't love me... but at least i know, that i need someone who will love me and accept me for being me...

maybe this where i bid you goodbye... maybe i have to pack up all our memories together in a box and burn them outside... all the things you said to me... all the laughs we shared... santa, is not worthy of me so i have to send him far where someone deserves him more than me...

...someday, i'll be able to see the snow.

...someday, i'll be able to fly far far away from here...

...someday, when i don't remember you... ... ... that's when i'm free.