i can't eat anything right now.

and the temptation is pretty big..

i hate this.

next week, i have to go back to remove the stitching..

the horror.

i'm tired..

i don't wanna say anything.. to anyone..

but they force me to do so..

to see what is inside me..

to use it against me..

to manipulate my innocence..

but all i tell them are lies to cover up my own skeletons..

i change the locks of my heart in order for them not to see what is inside the closet..

i'm tired..

i feel like i'm dragging the empire state building with me as i walk down this path..

but never has the thought of stopping crossed my mind..

i will never stop.

i will never open up.

i will never be used.

i will never be brainwashed.

i will never look back.

i will never shed a single tear.

..because this is what people with no souls do.

they enjoy other people getting hurt and they have no feeling..

and i am one of them..

"there are things in life that you can't hold on forever..
no matter how much you fight for it.

sometimes destiny isn't always good..
it becomes playful.

when you meet someone you learned to love,
you thought that it was destiny who made your path cross.

but what if making your paths cross is just part of the game that the playful destiny created,
making you realize in the end that the person you thought was destined for you wasn't really meant to stay..
but only destined to make you feel loved and leave you when you've already fallen..."

-aisha.

gaano ba kalayo ang pupuntahan natin para lang mabalik ang pagmamahal na binigay?

ilang sacrifice ba ang kailangan natin magawa para lang marealize nila kung gaano ka-important sila sa buhay natin?

sacrifice.

yun daw ang basehan para malaman mo kung mahal ka talaga ng taong mahal mo.

hindi lang nila alam na ito rin ang dahilan para mapagod ang taong nagmamahal sa taong hindi nakakaalam ng salitang sacrifice...