I didn't do so hot on my psychology test.  /rr/ I know I deserved it though; I failed to study for it like I should have.  /nn/ If I make it through all my classes this quarter, then praise God.  If not, then praise God anyway because He is still who He is...and as for me, I just need to cultivate self-discipline on my part, even if I have to learn to do so the hard way. /ii/

For some reason, I don't feel so in tune with God anymore.  /nn/ I haven't backslidden, but I'm unable to feel His presence so deeply these days.  My spirit has developed a murkiness...and this murkiness has physically manifested in my physical health as well as through my actions and the decisions I make in my life.  /qq/

I ask, "Have I truly been redeemed, O God?".  Good question--I know that I am and always will be.  But I realized that I've been allowing my worldly pleasures compromise my personal convictions of what things and lifestyles are holy and pleasing to God's heart.  /nn/ Oftentimes, I say that action needs to be taken from the place of conviction, but what am I doing?  I'm very aware of what He wants from us, but what the heck am I doing?  Why am I such a fool?  /nn/

The sooner God shows me how sick I truly am, the better. /kk/