i'm such a stalker...

i haven't spoken to him in a few days.. and i'm going insane...

what the heck is happening to me? i thought i was on top of this... like i could keep everything at bay... and now this? wth...

this sucks.. big time... i hate it ...

i'm just really digging my own grave here... something that's not ever gonna happen.. i'm hanging on an extra thin piece of string...

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i must be stronger than this... why is it that it always comes back to him....?  it's not funny anymore..

i wanna move on with my life.. first love sucks asssssssssssss big time!

hate hate hate

this is so sad... i need to get a life...


i'm so busy with my life... how am i able to find the lull time to think about him? 

i can't even look at guys who go near me without comparing them to him... what exactly do i like/love about him? when he's a lot of things that are less than perfect..  he's so hard to convince... he's so worldly.. he's such a geek... he's loves alcohol and ganja... he always debates with me... he doesn't care.. he loves women (not me)...

what the heck am i trying to do?  be the world's best masochist?


and what do i want from him?   a relationship?  a relationship he cannot give?  what the frick sorry situation is this? 

my eyes and my tears are bestfriends since they meet daily...

would i  have been better off not meeting him that one day?  i don't know... probably not...

cold...

rain....

brrr....

it would have been nicer sharing an umbrella..

get over it camille.. you're psycho