YEsterday I couldnt sleep... I was too tired and my day was really fu**d up... 

I arrived home, really happy coz of the drink... But I was worried coz of my bf too... I sended him a call and he didnt answered... "hes working " I thougth... I sended him an sms.

At late night I wanted to call my bf but my parents arrived and were standing in the door of my room for a lot of time... Waiting to hear me talking with my bf...

Then I got a call, arround midnigth, from my band mate... He was asking me why did I quitted the band and so on.... MY parents went to the door again...

I was watching drama so that they dont get too suspicious, and if they hear any sounds, I would say it was coz of the drama... But they didnt go out... Only at 3 am I got time to check my second phone...

He finnaly called me back and he was worried and mad. He was so mad... My heart was aching really mutch ><;;.....

He told me things that it really hurted me... Again... I dont want him to do it again...

Now I feel really messed up coz I couldnt even send him an sms saying what was happening... 

He went probably out last night. Because he was mad...

I hope nothing happend and that he is ok...