i came home from night school and opened my email. i was soooo happy when i saw an email from SM Entertainment. finally i would know if i were rejected or accepted. i opened it and saw i was only a reply to my question. i sent it on oct. 19th and they finally got back to me. at least now i know that within the next 4 weeks i'll get my rejection notice?

so i just read on soompi that callbacks are tonight. they called everyone yesterday. i didnt get called. meaning i spent another year of my life wasted. wasted training. wasted working hard. just to not get picked. im so mad i could cry right now. to know that i did everything i could do. and its so close. and it just got ripped right out of my hands. i really want to cry. because callbacks are tonight. tonight. and i didnt get called yesterday. yesterday. nope. not a single call. so much for a change in fortune this half of the year. fail. fail. fail. fail. fail. fail. fail.

SOOOO. the SM audtions are a month away. i am totally amped. yes. i know i havent used cyworld in like forever but.... i have my reasons =) so totally my bad to those of you i havent kept in contact with.

the audition is on october 18 so its a month yesterday away and its at the same location it was at for the past 2 years. for the past maybe 2 months my vocal coach has had me working on Hero by Mariah Carey and only recently... say last saturday, she decided i can start working on I Will Always Love You, the Whitney Houston version. sooo there are 4 weeks and my vocal coach doesnt know if i can do it. i would feel better about doing it if i had more time to practice. but with the school work load and a part-time job thats incredibly demanding, 24 hours just doesnt seem enough. and to figure out what to wear. i think i know. but i need to buy boots and shorts. or it wont work =O

peace out till next time =]

soo. today i had a photoshoot. woke up at 830 and got ready (yet i was still late)
the photoshoot was really fun but it was really cold. hahah we were doing jumping jacks to keep warm. sadly since it was my first shoot i was super stifff. lucky for me the photographer was a friend of a friend of mines =)  i thought i did poorly but according to her i did...good. ahah. i wonder what shes gonna do with the pictures. dunno. we'll see =)