gosh. idk what's the difference between the C word & L word

stupid me.

now... i miss my bestfriend.

i wanna tell her everything.

she keeps me sane.

oh why why??

but i like what i feel now.

thinking of it....

well, i always think of it.

i like it this way.

...i love it.

but yet.. i

don't wanna expect.

it happend in the past but all i got was me crying.

and my friends just suffered 'cuz they never saw me

crying so hard. and even my other schoolmates was concerned.

i just hate liers and cheaters.

if it ain't gonna happen

..well back to being a girl with hatred.

but what can i do? i want to but i dunno!

arrrghh..

i.... i want my bestfriend!!!.

but i dunno.. how to explain it to her.

whatever.