okay. so in a few hours I'll be taking my exam. THAT IS if we don't get lost and I reach the Ateneo on time. T_T

*sigh*

My future will be based on this. *cries*

Mei Shuang ah! Jia you!

Yes, I think I'm still alive.

But gah, I'm gonna go down anytime soon. I'm so tired and exhausted because of school! I skipped school today because of my sinusitis and that horrid post nasal drip. T_T My throat is aching so bad so bad so bad. HMPH. -_-'

Xiao Zhu is still with Angel unnie, and my phone camera cable couldn't be detected by the computer. ARGH. So yeah. ^_^ Pretty much pictureless unless the cable decides to be friends with me again.

I do hope you guys haven't forgotten me! I'm sorry I haven't checked out your minihompys in ages! After this weekend things will be a little less.... pressuring, a little less hectic because the ACET will be over.

ACET... AAAH. I haven't started reviewing yet. And this is the school I really want to get into. Thinking about it makes me just... sigh. Of worry. Waah.

The 1st Qtr Distribution of Cards is on Friday. And I'm scared that when I go to school tomorrow I'll be given a conference slip. I have this strong feeling I'll be getting one for the first time in my life. I admit I've been out of it since the school year started. I feel so lazy. I didn't have inspiration or the drive anymore. =x Wah. I need to clean up my act and get back on track. I don't want to put this last year to waste and mess up everything I've worked for as a student in SPCP.

I cried Monday in school. Because of her. It's driving me crazy, it's so wrong. =/

Hi everyone! ^^ Did you guys miss me? ROFL Just kidding! ^^ I haven't been around for the longest time, because my computer was broken. ='(

Anyway, how have you guys been? ^^ I hope everyone is doing well! I'm fine, except for the fact that I have a runny nose and I keep on sneezing every minute or so. =x

My family's a bit fine. My mom will be confined in the hospital for a couple of days, because she has to go through pain management and therapy. (Long story, but she's been going to the hospital several years back) Right now, Katie, Mom and Dad are on their way to Medical City.

I want to go to my friend Loupau's birthday party but I can't because I have to look after my siblings. = ( Plus I have to pay the bills this afternoon, since neither my mom nor my dad can do it.

We didn't have classes yesterday, because the HighSchool teachers left for the province for an outreach activity. My parents accompanied me to the Land Transportation Office to get my Student's Permit. xD Which means I can drive!!! But of course, with an adult around. =x I'm a bit nervous because I haven't driven a car in like, 3 years or more! T_T The last time I got to drive was in 7th grade, and that was a looooong long time ago! T_T''' =x Dad will be teaching me again, so hopefully, I would do well. ^^

My parents and I had an arugument about the colleges I will be applying for. It was unavoidable! I mean, I don't know exactly what they want me to do! Whenever I consult them, they go, "It's up to you, do whatever you want." And so I follow that, and after I've accomplished things and show it to them they'll go ballistic and tell me to think things over a thousand times and force me to change my decision. They scold me and ask me why I don't consult them. *pulls hair* HELLO? I DID! T_T

There were several bad phone calls, and my mom shouted at me a lot. But... it stopped in the afternoon. I don't think it's been resolved yet, and the discussion's still open...

In the afternoon we fetched mom from her office, and then my sisters at our school (because the Gradeschool department still had classes), and we went to the hospital for my mom's check up. My siblings and I waited at the lobby for an hour. And then after that, mom said that she will be confined today.

We still had to go to the mall to eat and buy groceries. We ate at a Chinese resto called Hap Chan. Anywhere we go, it's either we eat at Friday's or at a Chinese restaurant. But I'm not complaining about it. xD Because I love Chinese food anyway! ^^ After that, Katie and I went to the department store to buy nail polish! haha! ^^ xD We bought four -- 2 greens of different shades, 1 orange and 1 purple! ^_^ Jade, Cha and Mom went to the grocery while Raffy and Dad stayed at the arcade. We went home after that. ^^ <3

When we got home, the computer was still not working, and I was already crying like a baby because I have a deadline for BM. =x And then when I woke up Dad announced that he was able to fix the PC! *dances* So now I'm here. I'm gonna catch up with all of your posts! I hope you guys still visited while I wasn't around. ^_^'' <333 Thanks everyone! :)

I'm gonna go upload some new pictures now! <3

Good morning! It's 7:51 AM here! xD ROFL.

*sigh*

I woke up an hour ago, and I already feel so exhausted. Or maybe I just didn't get enough sleep. But no. That can't be the reason. =x I guess it's because for the past month, I haven't been psyched to wake up. To put it clearly, I just lost reasons to be excited about the next day.

I can't feel the drive any more. I don't feel any excitement, entusiasm, for anything at all.

When a person comes to that stage, isn't it the worse? When you find no reason to smile, no reason to do things.

You go about  your daily routines, because they ARE your routines. You have to do them, you need to do them. But you don't want to. You have to because you don't have any other choice.

It's like being a robot. Doing things but never getting any emotion or feeling from them.

And I don't like it.

I TRY to be as optimistic as I can, I smile, I laugh, but that's it. I don't really feel it, you know? Which is why I'm so bothered and so...

I feel that things right now are pointless. I've come to this point where I don't care, I don't give a damn about things. Sometimes I'm just too tired to care. Even about others.

I can't believe this is happening to me already. I'm not even 17 yet, and it feels like I carry the world on my shoulders. T_T