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Jul 22, 2008

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A Tired Mind Blogs~ (Jul 22, 2008 7:29 pm)

Last time, i wasnt able to write out everything as i would like, because i was at my uncle's place, and there was someone reading right behind me. frankly, that's something i just cant do. but anyways, now im at home and can write to my heart's extent.
my birthday's coming up soon. and my mom got me a gift. which was nice of her. she's never gotten me anything with her own money before. it actually touched me more than i would think. and i took the day of for my birthday, (which is on the 29th!) im going to be twenty! yay! and i've gotten everyone to promise me that they'll get me liquour. im excited. haha, i'll be a mature woman of the world sooner than i thought!
but anyways, i had a reading done for me recently. that woman was straight on with everything!!! it was about me and my fearless leader and she mentioned one part of his past... and it turns out... when the fates allowed me... it really was true! so, now all i have to do is wait patiently for spring. that's when our love will truly blossom. at least, that's what she said. and since she was right about everything else, im going to trust her.
i havent been on in a while either for other things. i found a new website to hang about in. it's called 'interpals.net' and it's for meeting penpals. it's really a nice site, but too much work! augh! lately, i just dont feel like doing anything.
even trying my hand at romance. (*sighs*) and did i mention the two hot russian guys? well. yes. im so tired. also. my ups man knows that i like him. im NEVER EVER ordering anything via ups. (this sounds familiar, have i mentioned it before?!)
i bought a nice necklace too. i think it shows some of my new beliefs quite well. it's a pendant with the norse god odin's 18 runes. the ones he first found. it's suppose to help me with balancing the parts of my life that the runes represent. it's lovely and i love it. =)
im going to bed now, im tired. and lately, sleep doesnt come easily.
i dont believe in pills, so...

-Lizzy

Current Mood: moodTired
Heatgutsman
Heatgutsman
Jul 29, 2008 7:54 pm

heehee, thats awesome. if you don't order anything from UPS you two will never speak! you can't run away from your attraction to him! XP oh, and Happy Birthday!

Jul 17, 2008

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Busy Times (Jul 17, 2008 2:25 pm)

It's been awhile since i last wrote, huh? almost a week i believe. but im not the one to blame for that. i've been busy mastering my runes with loving care, plus there's been a whole lot of drama at work. and now, we just know i cant have that, now can i? but before i start to rant, im at my uncle's home cause im basically homeless. can you believe that? my old man kicked me out of the house so he can have some fun in private with his girlfriend. ugh. how annoying. so my uncle out of the goodness of his heart decided to let us stay at his place. it hasnt been that bad. im not alone at least. ^^; and im getting better at pool. can you say 'poolshark' anyone?
anyways, more about work. so. let's talk about my fearless leader for a while, ok? it's like... ok. so he's still after that stupid tart, but it's ok cause i know what we have will work out. i mean, ms. misty said so. btw. she is soooooooo good at what she does. seriously. she got me spot on, and she got my king charming spot on as well. so i know that what she speaks is truth. just yesterday, he was sooooooo cute! <3 we decided to show another one of my coworkers how to use the map features on google maps. (you know, the one that shows the houses!) and so as i got up, he sat down, and just sat me down right next to him! it's so nice sitting by him! sooo warm! and then he just hugged me and whatever. every day he cares less and less what others think. but of course, he was somewhat laughing/jeolous at my reaction when the hot russian guys came... he laughed at me and then he pointed out that they leave in sept. ugh. so depressing. but he was kinda mad at how i reacted. i was sooo sad. i hope i didnt make a fool of myself. but when i came home and asked my pendulum, it said that he still loves me and doesnt think me as a fool. silly yes. but i can live with silly. misty said that he finds that to be a charming trait in my personality. so im happy. somewhat.
anyways, my ups man. you know the god? yes. well. he has a girlfriend. why is my business being told all through buffalo?! im never ordering from ups again! EVER! EVER!
anyways, more about today. had a weird dream. seriously. it was like crazy. does anybody remember rugrats? well, that stupid green dinosaur was in it. freya doesnt visit me too often now that i've taken the runes more seriously, but i know she's still there. =)
ugh. my side hurts right now. i'll write more later. i wonder... is my appendix going to burst? d*** and i wanted to die in a car crash...

-Lizzy
Current Mood: moodCrazy

Jul 09, 2008

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Visitation (Jul 09, 2008 10:25 am)

Last night, i had a 'dream'. in this dream, i met a very beautiful woman. she had long flowing blond hair, deep blue eyes, and a very pretty mouth that spoke to me. not in the 'verbal' sense, but more like in the mind, although her lips moved the sound was only heard by me in my head. does that make any sense? well, anyways, there was no background. we were surrounded only by light and at times, darkness. and while sitting on the blank ground, she showed me the Runes. naming each and every one of them, i did the same. now, in the conscious world i have yet to even memorize 5 Runestones, but in my 'dream' i recited them, of course after she told them to me first. we continued 'studying' the Runes falling onto her dress and rising back up. combinations were formed and i sat there mumbling something. her words became mine. i dont remember the words we chanted, and i can only remember a couple of the Runes presented, but the feeling i had... i felt a sense of awe and peace. i felt as if i was in front of a higher power than my own.
i think i found my goddess.
i think i found Freya.

-Lizzy
Current Mood: moodGrateful
Heatgutsman
Heatgutsman
Jul 13, 2008 3:07 am

OH MY GODS! There is no way you are Norse?!?!?!?!!?! I thought it was an extinct religion....I thought i was the only one.

Jul 06, 2008

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Runestones & Answers (Jul 06, 2008 10:08 am)

Well, first things first. he's all better! yay! i was soooo worried! and yes. i did overreact, but i really dont know the recovery time for a 46 year old man, mind you! but anyways, another thing i've learned is that i do have to stop being so possesive. especially when were not even in a formal relationship. haha. besides, it's his nature to be so flirty. why do i always fall for these men?! im sure it's unhealthy for both sides. (*sighs*) and, i've been talking to one of my coworkers, and yes. they've noticed how he is with me. crap. he is going to get in so much trouble if he's not careful.
but anyways, yesterday i met my dad's new girlfriend. she seems... nice. i mean, she's not exactly the bombshell my dad described her to be, but hey! beauty is in the eye of the beholder i guess. though i do sometimes wonder about these women he surrounds himself with. my mom is a complete psycho, his best friend can be taken advantage of REALLY easily, and this woman can be guilted into anything. but hey! who am i to complain right? i can use this to my advantage. (*smirks*)
anyways, i got a new rune set. why i didnt get into it before i have no idea. cause im really, REALLY, good at it. it's amazing. i've never connected to a divination tool as easily and quickly as i did with these moonstone runes. now, whenever i get a new set of tarot cards i usually ask the deck what will it teach me. well, i decided to do the same thing with these runes. now, can you believe that out of the 25 runes, the one i picked (at random without looking, instead letting my fingers 'feel' for the stone that was calling me!) i got the rune of knowledge: Kenaz. i was amazed. i mean, seriously. what are the chances?! yes. we defiantly got a connection. then i asked it some other stuff and so far so good!
im really excited about this! plus, it keeps my mind from wandering to my king charming. so it's a nice change of pace. =)

-Lizzy
Current Mood: moodHappy

Jun 27, 2008

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The Crash (Jun 27, 2008 5:30 pm)

When... when the reality of things collides with what little hope a person has in their heart, reality crushes that hope and leaves only the unfair feeling of pessisism. im in a really bad mood today. remember my king? and remember our age difference? well, deep down i always knew that it wouldnt, couldnt, work out. but to have him say it, to hear it from his own mouth, well, it makes you kind of wonder if there even is a god. and i realize im not the only one hurt in this reality, he sounded kinda sad himself. but why, oh why does society have to be so tough on people in love? they have a problem with gays, multicultured, and even age difference! cant they understand that if two people are walking down a street together, the one isnt a gold-digger, and the other isnt a pervert. why cant they stop to think that these two people can actually be in love?
today, i learned a hard lesson.
and while im away here, pining for a love i cant even show, painting my nails black and reading sappy love poems, my dad. my dad is learning what it is to fall in love again.
sometimes life can be so unfair. while me and my king would have the best chance, my dad and this woman (a married woman!) are having Venus smile down upon them lovingly!
yes, im bitter.
this is the second time it hasnt work out for me.
my psychic says to be patient and wait, our fate changes every day. well. for how long am i suppose to wait? what am i suppose to learn from this? society is a cruel beast?! is that it? well, yes, i've learned that. now please. show me the goodness.

-Lizzy
Current Mood: moodSad
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