Has anybody ever realized just how much power a person has in knowing someone's name?! O.o
it's actually kinda scary really.
because, ok. sometimes i get into what everyone now refers to as my 'stalker mode'. in this mode, i really can do anything. i have been able to find where people live, their birthdates, relatives, etc. and sure, that may not sound so impressive now. but i've also been able to find their social security number. and with that alone i can do some pretty heavy damage. not that i ever would mind you. but you think these people would be a bit more... careful.
cause you know. because of psychos like me.
but anyways, back to my story. (lol. i know right! there was a story to this?!) well anyways. i needed to find someone's EXACT birthdate. and since i havent done this in a while it was taking a bit longer than usual. 45 minutes later, i have his birthday and im feeling rather guilty.
hehe, maybe my conscious is kicking in? well, it's a bit too late for that now. cause now i know alot about this person. maybe even more than he was ever going to tell me.
what i really should do is just let nature take it's natural course. but i know that will lead me away from him. cause well. because of certain sociaty morals. like the idea of being with someone say... more or less 20 years your junior. not that I would care, mind you. i find the whole idea of being with someone older quite sexy. (and he looks good! d***it!) but... i've also noticed he's quite the player... >_> how he manages that in his age is beyond me.
AUGH!!! i have to stop thinking about this!
STOP! STOP!! STOP!!!
but i dont even think this is love. it's just something to pass the time.
well, anyways, you know whose name i SHOULD find out? the ups' man. he's sooo fine! and young too! <3 everyone would be happy with him! but, (and i dont know if i've mentioned this before) im beginning to think that his name is going to end up being... brian. im surronded by the lot of them i tell you! and if he's name is that, i'll just DIE.
ok. ok. breathe lizzy.
lol. is that how you spell 'breathe'? looks kinda funny to me.
actually, that whole video i put was stupid, now that i think about it. it was soooo dark! but im going to leave it up! maybe i'll put another one this afternoon! oh! i know! tommorow i go to work! i'll record that! haha! >:)
and maybe that girl will be there! <3 she's soooooooo cute! actually, no. scratch that. she's not cute, but to me, (and i know i've mentioned this before!) she's ok looking to me. i've seen finer creatures it's true. but she makes me happy. :)
kinda. TT.TT
my god. what is wrong with me?! im always talking about relationships!!! and i dont even have any! argh!
actually... now that im here. i kinda do want to bad mouth someone's relationship, but i know i shouldnt. (even though i really, REALLY, want too...) but i wont! i'll just rant about it at work. they understand the whole situation. (but godd***it! i really want to bash them here, i wont even be able to tell them the WHOLE truth.) ah, whatever. may prudence hold my tongue.
actually, you know who should become a bit more prudent?
my well intentioned, yet his-plan-totally-backfired boss. i mean, the thought was there, REALLY! but well. it got ME into some trouble. (even though i wasnt even the cause of it!)
cause, ok. well. um. this one coworker of mine. she's really high strung, and usually on edge. well, (and i have no idea who told him this!) apparently he believes she's talking down to us.
and. omg. i think i just realized who it might have been! O.O but, no! it couldnt have been her! if anyone knows how to hold her tongue it's her! O.o
but anyways, he went to her and told her about it. so yeah... then she came to me and put me on the spot by asking me alot of uncomfortable questions. how exactly are you suppose to answer to your superior! oh, goddess! protect me from all evil!
and she really wouldnt leave me alone. i feel like talking to him about THAT, but i know he'll just go and ARGH! i just want to know who put me in the middle of this! see? i told you something bad was going to happen!
my poor well intentioned boss...
(*sigh*) im just really happy i dont have to work with her now, except maybe just once a week after this month is over. and not even once a week, it'll be more like once every other week. people who stress out too much get ME stressed out. and then im not so happy.
tommorow though. i'll try to be happy.

-Lizzy
 

p.s. can you believe it's taken me three times to try to even post this blog?! i am SO not happy.

While i really should be getting ready for work, (actually, im suppose to be in school right now! O.O ) im just too excited to do that right now.
let's see, why am i excited? well... lately everything seems to be going my way! :O i am soooo happy that the goddess has decided to bless me so!
my lovely pendant is working wonderfully, (actually, i just discovered that it's voice activated! lol! how weird is that?!) but apparently people dont exactly APPROVE of a relationship with an old(er) man. (*sighs*) time to fix that, dont ya think? ;)
anyways, i do feel kinda guilty though. yesterday there was this whole big thing with an open house in his honor, and though i wasnt scheduled that day i was kinda suppose to go... but when you give me the option between going to work or shopping all day, the greater of the two evils wins. obviously.
well anyways, that's over now, (oh, i hope he doesnt hate me! XP ) oh! but yesterday was sooo much fun, that i just lied right now. kinda. i dont feel that guilty. ;) just an itty-bitty bit. maybe.
i saw my godlike ups man yesterday! <3 that erased any ideas of the others straight from my head! :D
'oh, ups man. how i adore thee, let me count the ways!
i love the way you drive your truck, and the way your hands brushes mine against the package.
i love your hair so radiant like the sun, and your eyes the hue of the sea,
your smile though, is what i adore, which can rival that of the gods.'
lol. i call that... 'ode to the ups man in d minor.' lol!
and things are also going very well with a certain idiot. although, even though i agreed to help him with something, the file just sits in my email. tonight i defiantly will. promise.
ah, and did i tell you? i found that elusive 'nude beige'! XD im so happy! it does make me look FABULOUS!
ah! and my lovely child sent me a letter. you know, the cute little girl i sponsor? yup! im soo happy she liked what i gave her!
hmm... it seems this week is going a bit too well...
just watch something ruin my fun later.
(*sigh*)
and the weather is so nice today too. :)

-Lizzy

p.s. does anybody here go on ebay? well, you know how i like to buy paranormal items right? well, this one girl was actuning off 3 night with a REAL life vampire.
the bid was already up to $175,600 when i last checked. but it seems ebay did not approve. i have do idea what happened to that sell.
and believe me.
she's authentic.

Alright. let's scratch out boys #1-4. actually, let's just scratch out all boys in general.
usually, i prefer to refer to myself as 'pansexual' (or, to the masses, just 'bi') but now. well, it's amazing how in such little time, all your hopes can be destroyed.
AMAZING!
so, now im offically a 'lesbian'.
just for now. im sure it's a phase, but im seriously hating all men right now.
and. omg. how i hate them.
on a happier note, i did find the makeup i needed. costed me more, and now it's basically in vain, but it's there. safe and sound within the drawers of my dresser.
yay.

-Lizzy

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Just a quick entry for now. during the weekend, i promise to write back to everyone! this is a tarot reading i just did. everyone seems to be pushing for a relationship between me and this one guy. so i checked to see what the cards had to say, this was the result. (im adding the most basic definitions i found, so you could understand what the positions mean. this is how i learned them myself. the internet. got to love it.)

The card not shown but at the center of the cross, represents the atmosphere surrounding the central issue. Knight of Cups: A person of turbulent, poetic, romantic cast. An opportunity or favorable event in the near future. Deep feeling transformed into verse, music or visions.