It's emberassing i know. but today im going to write about a failed love attempt that i recently experinced. after this, i'll be completly over it. promise.

im a person who know believes that was born under an unlikely star. im sure mars was in orbit with venus or something when my birth took place. there is possibly no other way, that my love life could be soo... pathetic.
anyways, as everyone now knows, (hopefully) no sex is safe from me. (*smirks*) i like both male and female. but in a way, i think everyone is like this. at least to a certain extent. but that's for a different day, a different entry. my point in mentioning this however is this. i've been crushing on girls mainly for a while now. so i hadnt been paying much attention to men. and then, right when im contemplating quitting school, this nice, (and cute!) boy comes up to me. apparently he doesnt understand much about music. poor thing. luckily i was plowing through the material, (no matter how brutaly) so i was able to help him. and that's where our unbalanced relationship started. it was more of a teacher-student relationship now that i think about it. whatever info he had told me about his life, i was only able to extract from him in my annoyingly trademarked fashion. either way, slowly i fell for him. but i knew it wouldnt last. the dream told me as much. and so, with some dread i went to the christmas concert with him.

and that's when it happened. he's going to be spending time with his girlfriend. and apparently im going to be spending some with mine too.

great.

now, to him. im officially a lesbian. but it was all a complete accident! it's true! i was just so shocked that i ended up saying: 'yeah! how cool! i am too!'
and then he looked at me and was all like 'oh? your girlfriend?'
too late to catch my mistake so i just went along with it.

(*sighs*) oh what a tangle web we weave. when at first we practice to deceive.

anyways, that's the end of my story. now im over him. although. as i was going to check my horoscope that day, i was thinking about another boy. im in my head i was thinking how he really wasnt my type, although a nice guy, and, get this. (and i swear it's true) my horoscope as i was just clicking on it stated (more or less):

'he's not your type? well, try it anyways.
you havent had much luck with 'your' type anyways, right?'

omfg. coincedence? i think not.

anyways, now i have something to contemplate about. though i may already have someone, a long distance relationship really isnt much to brag about. i need to have something other than bread sometimes, right?
oh. and so far. (just adding my 2 cents here) im not really digging this new cyworld. but, then again. im a creature of habit.

-Lizzy

p.s. wish me luck tommorow. i have a final coming up. music. haha. ^^;

Last night, i had such wonderful dreams.
one involved this one boy i have been crushing at from school. it was a sweet dream, quite mostly, our actions doing the speaking for us, but also with a bitter ending. this is his last semester after all... so we will be parted. but i will endure.
the other one was a fairy tale. i'll write it down, someday. but... it was really odd...
anyways, not much i know, but it cant be helped.
hey, i know! why dont i write down a list of the things i like?
ok, here goes.

I like:

the smell of pages from a newly opened book.
rain.
reheated chinesse food.
boys with long fingered hands.
those same hands playing on a piano or typing away.
those first few minutes before waking. where everything is nice and warm, like the world itself is protecting you.
fairy tales.
Epics. books or video games that have sequels.
tarot cards.
looking at the mirror after taking a bath/shower.
snow falling gently from the sky.
early morning birds singing.
sea otters.
chocolate.
gentlemen. you know, the ones who open doors for you. :)
girls with a tomboyish act.
girls with short haircuts. <3
cosplayers.
manga.
watching ice skaters.
little kids.
alaskan huskeys.
presents.
forget-me-nots.
hourglasses.
mood rings.
the colors pink and green.
knee high boots.
accents.
knives.
herbs.
letters.
my fearless leader.
ninjas.
dream stars.
the smell of mascara.
Lee Dong Gun.
MIKA.
Billie Piper.
Doctor Who.
powerpop.
bubblegum pop.
white sheets on a bright summer's morning.
and...

well, that's just a little list. ;)

-Lizzy

OMGOMGOMGOMG!!! break is coming up soon, no more school!!! and you know what that means?! since i'll be able to do more hours at work, i just might get days off!!!
so get ready cyworld! lizzy is soooo back! :D

As usual i lack the courtesy to stay on top of things. isnt it horrible? will i never learn? well anyways, these days life's been taking it easy on me. no, i still dont have a partner, (though you can find me chasing the occasional skirt or two, haha.) but i dont really mind. that whole romance thing was probably just a phase i was going through. next time you see me with someone it will most likely be for money. :)
speaking of which, i dont make much where i work. well, you know i make enough. but still...
anyways, what else has been happening? hmm... it's funny i always come to these things meaning to write something long and meaningful, but in the end all i can do is rant. or babble. which is probably what most likely im doing right now. XD
anyways, school starts in a month. im so scared. i really want to switch to humanitarian sciences, but i dont think it's going to work. but im going to see what i can do.
oh, did i mention i went camping? last weekend actually. VERY exciting. (*rolls eyes*) although it did inspire me to start something. it's called 'Summer of Acorns'. it's a camp love story with a twist. considering my current tastes at the moment, anyone care to guess what it is?
hehe!
anyways, i got to go. i have like three whole games to finish by the end of this month. and i cant seem to force myself to play them. xenosaga has defiantly been the best game ever. (such a wicked cool ending! oh, the plot twists, surprises! *gasp!*)
talk to you later!
-Lizzy

It seems that my computer seems to want to work now. and that makes me happy. it's been forever and a day since i last wrote here, which is kinda sad, but now that im working at the library i think i'll be able to get on more often. hee, that place is dead for the most part, so im sure no one would mind if im on the internet every once in a while.
anyways, that's what i've mostly been up to. work, work, work, game. let's see, and although i used to complain when i was at central training, i cant help but miss it. hee, especially the guys. they were really cool. which is weird, cause i dont think i've met a cool guy in a while... ah well. (*shrugs*) who knows. i might see them again. hehe, especially since im getting back into my old habits and er... researching... some stuff.
anyways, right now it's really late. and i have to go to work tomorrow. so i'll write then.
-Lizzy