오.. 이제 한글됀다.
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ~!

It has been such a long time since I last wrote in here..
I guess that is what happens when you open too many accounts to keep in touch with all your friends on various sites.
I orginally signed up with this Cy to chat with my other friends who had the korean Cy...
Then I decided to just keep this Cy..
I recently went to Cali to go see family and friends.
My ol' boss told me to register for Facebook to keep in touch...

So now I have:
1. Facebook
2. Myspace
3. AsianAvenue (unless they closed my account for no activity)
4. Xanga
5. Korean Cyworld
6. US Cyworld
7. Friendster

I rarely go on Myspace, AsianAvenue, Xanga, and Friendster...
Oddly enough many of these sites do not allow you to close your account
Maybe it is the hope that you change your mind about keeping away from the sites and return to it....

Well a few weeks ago I was in a MAD hunt for Wii FIt. I really had some bad luck, so I decided to look up online rather going to the store and feeling frustrated. I randomly checked Gamestop.com and found they were in stock of a Wii Fit bundle. So I bought it.. it was not to arrive until early July but it arrived a few days after the online purchase. I refused to pay over the manufacturer's price by purchasing it on Ebay or Amazon. I found it annoying and infuriating that so many people bought Wii Fit solely for the purpose of sellng it online for 4x the actual price. I was dumbfounded so many people actually bidded so much over the manufacturer's price. It was not completely out of stock in stores or online. Stores are continuously getting shipments.

It is really fun! I love the aerobics one. I am going to see if there is an aerobics game. The yoga moves are typical. The strength training is somewhat difficult especially the challenge ones. Like you can beat the trainer.. yea if you were already fit. The balance and aerobics games are fun. The boxing moves do get difficult as the level increases. I get alot of anger out while doing that one.

It is a good workout. Obviously, once you get fit you may need to purchase a different exercise game.

Well, today I woke up feeling happy. Before I go workout, I must go to Target to buy a bamboo towel. Yes!?! A bamboo towel.. did you know that Target has many bamboo made products? It is about eco-friendliness. Then, I must go workout.

Come back... Then, make Jello jigglers and bake a chicken. I will take some jigglers to my friend, who I will see today. Due to work and laziness, I have not see her since she took me to the airport to see my bf.. That was in March. I think it has been a month.

It will be nice to catch up with her on things and to spend time with an old friend.

Lots to do today... It makes me happy~

I have decided to keep myself busy and think about the things I can do..

1. I can practice baking and cooking.. Never really cooked for myself.. my bf is the chef.

2. Exercise to stay healthy.. I think this will also help me with my mood swings.. and energy level.

3. Catch up on reading.. helps creativity and vocabulary.

4. Maintain the house.. keep things clean and tidy since I do not have a maid. ^-^

5. Release my anger or sadness by drawing. I used this as a release alot during my freshman and sophomore years in college, but for some reason I just stopped once I started working more.

The only thing is to remind myself and remember it is all about perception. The mind is a powerful thing. If I keep viewing things negatively then that is how I will feel.

So.. happy thoughts and taking actions towards the happiness~

Cheesiness I know but sometimes you need a little of it in this crazy hectic world we live in~

It is interesting that I totally forgot that today was Friday the 13th. My friend reminded me of it while I was talking to her. Today has been a blah day.. actually this past week has been blah for me.

I have been pretty self-loathing and pitying myself. I do not know why.. well that is partially true. Anyhow, I am hoping that as I b**ch and moan that somehow I will feel better. So here it goes:

I keep wondering if I were to die, who would notice. How long it will be before someone notices? Would it take for my corpse to be decaying and stinking up the apartment? Would it be people I work with? Would my bf know within the day? Who would find me? Who would contact my parents? Who could contact my bf? Would I be missed? Would people grief over me? Would I be a loss to humanity?

Then, sometimes I wonder... as we get older do friendships mean less and less until we have children.. then we depend on our friendships to keep our sanity? After elementary or when we start to notice the opposite sex.. do we trade our hormones for meaningful friendships? Or is life all about finding what we need and the friendships or the relationships we have with the opposite sex is about keeping ourselves from feeling alone?

I always thought that friends would always have your back.. and no matter whether or not you are with someone your friends would still be there... Is it to naive or selfish? We say "bros before hoes" but do we mean it? I mean from television to my own experiences.. this does not seem to be the case. Is it that we want to believe that our friendships are lasting and meaningful?.. or is it that when we find someone of the opposite sex who notices us we just become stupid.

Why is it that we want to surround ourselves by people... whether they are people to kill time with or people who we have established close ties with? Why is it that we would rather talk to strangers than have a meaningful one with those who supposedly mean something to us?

Why is it that we are so trusting and at the same time so suspicious? Why do we say one thing and mean another? Why do we toy with people just to amuse ourselves? Why is the world so f*ked up? Why are we always concerned with ourselves? Why? Why? Why?

Lately, my mind has been filled with these thoughts.. I get this way once in awhile..

To be honest, I do feel very alone...