Last day of Hip-Hop summer skool, it was a blast but it was kind of sad because I may never see Gabriel or any other the other students ever again... I can only pray I'll be able to be a part of any of his other projects some time in the fall... I bough commercial and real hip hop cds from Gabriel and I got the real cd for free... lmao I don't know why, I just got it. *shrug* Don't ask, don't tell? I'm so mean... lol Jenna, Chrisa, and I never got to go to Coldstone's for ice cream but maybe another time when their Mom is less busy...

Do you guys see the adorable guy on the top of this entry? Most of you should know it's Lee Sungmin from Super Junior. (if you don't, we're not as close as you think lmao). *sigh* He's really cute lmao. Most of my western friends would probably call Super Junior or TVfXQ gay but that's their issue. I can't help the culteral difference but maybe that's what makes me love Korean boy bands more. Especially Super Junior. I just love their personalities. Their music is nice and they' have the typical "pretty boy" image but they're the first singers I've ever started liking for their personalities, not their talent or looks (sorry, no offense to anyone).

They're so... pure and innocent, unlike the average American or hot guy you see on the streets (okay, Hyukjae watches his "special" videos and Kangin likes girls with big boobs... but still, they can't help that they're guys :x)

It's their everything that makes them so... attractive? Even their flaws add character to them and that's maybe why I love them more. Kangin's "I'm better than you" attitude makes him Kangin. Heechul's random-ness and "I don't follow the rules or give a d@mn about your opinion" personality makes me love him even more. Despite the fact that these qualities make me hate them, I wouldn't love them as much if they weren't the way they are. I like them because they're different from the "traditional" guy I meet on the street. They're cute and they're not afriad of their sexuality like a lot of westerners are. They aren't afriad to cry and talk about subjects most guys aren't really open about or usually discuss like fashion, their "pretty" looks, and so many other random things. The way they hug each other and leave sweet notes on each others' cyworlds really make me smile because as I've said numerous times before, most guys don't do that and I think it's so sweet that guys are showing their more sensitive said. Many are self-acclaimed shopaholics, style their own hair, and yes, wear lip gloss / balm and obsess over their face. I think that is so awesome. Yes, I'm weird but if you don't agree I'll suppose you're weird too.

I LOVE SUPER JUNIOR. <333

--- Christie xoxo

So anyway, I feel really bad. I should have updated my cy while I was having my vacation in L.A but I just didn't feel like writing anything. Everything was so complicated and if I had posted anything, it would have turned into a complete crazy ranting spree. So... I'm breaking the silence and I'm posting EVERYTHING that happened. Not all the nitty gritty details but everything I remember and feel like writing xD.

To begin with, most of my stay in L.A was fantastic. I got to take care of a puppy for a week (my cousin Shin Young's Cocker Spaniel Junnie) and it was great. The dog is so sweet and I regret that my adoption at Petsmart didn't go well... Long story short, I tried to adopt a dog while I was there but after taking care of a dog... It was just too hard for me. If Petsmart pulled through I would have kept the dog but for some reason they never called me so I'll assume that I didn't get the dog... I'm really sad and bummed out but atleast I know that it has a safe home and it's being taken care of. Now, I've changed my mind. I want a kitty. Look at Kim Hee Chul's cat Hee Bum, he is so cute! (and well behaved too... Hee Chul brought him to a radio show and he didn't make a noise the whole time... what a sweet heart!). I really want a pet... just something I can hold and know will love me (I sound so desperate).

And... despite the puppy issue, I had a blow up with my dad... I feel like such a scum, I'm having issues with everyone is my family. Maybe there's something wrong with me. But I have a reason to be mad. He insulted my beliefs, cursed my uncle, screamed at me, and made me do laundry, dishes, cooking, grocery shopping, gardening, and clean the hold. God d@mn it, I'm a guest not a housewife! I know I'm his daughter but that's no way to treat someone you only see once a year and for a few hours at the time. This is the first time I've actually stayed at his house for so long and he was horrible to me. He left me at home most of the day, the only food he's ever bought me that I didn't have to cook was Ja Jang Myon at a Chinese restaraunt and he knows I'm vegitarian! I went shopping ONCE and for 30 minutes! I couldn't buy any k-pop cds, magazines, or even clothes (I've lost a lot of weight and I need to buy new pants or a belt because none of my jeans fit anymore X_X). I can't believe he just lost control and abused me like that... and even worse, I had to live and sleep and cook for a step brother I never knew existed. He's such an a$$hole, the first day we met he asked if "Do you drink?" wtf I'm in high school, it's not LEGAL. Plus, my parents would SHOOT me if I did. I only drink wine occasionally at meals and that's only a couple sips. My god, what an idiot...

T_T Well, atleast I bought a couple cute outfits while I was there and mom promised to buy me a Siamese cat and lots of goodies when we go back to L.A for another two weeks sometime near my grandma's birthday on the 24. :(

--- Christie <333

.x.o.x.o : I'm sore al over... darn hip hop class... making me waste money at Mary's pizza shack... argh!