I just found out today that i'm gonna get kicked off my work! everything now is busted! all my dreams and hopes for this christmas are all gone like wind. Tomorrow will be my last day at work...I'm lost now..i dont know what to do...i gotta find another job...i know it isnt hard..but i hope i can make it

Yoshimi is now online!
http://84.244.181.156/~yoshimi/

I feel like my heart is going to stop beating anytime...
i feel the distress
i feel the comming of emptiness
i feel hollow
i'm feeling so black

I dont know how to save myself
I need a miracle

I got so bummed for 3 days.It was hell living without electricity and water because of the typhoon! I swear I dont want that to happen anymore! i was doomed and it almost felt like i was in prison!

dissapointed over this overwhelming feeling
i know things wont last long...everything seems to be temporary
temporary smiles would leave excruciating pain
i knew it all along...it wont last that long

i slept on a bed of promising dreams and tomorrow when i wake up i'll be waking up in the bed of thorns
what's tomorrow gonna offer for me?
should i anticipate for worst it could be?

emptiness inside me succumbs my entire life
people arround me cant seem to understand
and i dont understand why it has to be like this?

the world keeps crashing on me
turning me in to a tiny bit of grain that is almost unseen
maybe it would be better to end it