I'm having this dilemma.I'm happy and i'm not when i'm with him.He always makes me annoyed about things...small things actually...i'm just annoyed.Last night, i felt so stupid and worthless.I couldnt even help him with his homework.I really felt so dumb.What is wrong with me? I can't accept the fact that his homework is very easy but I couldnt even think right and couldnt gave him right answers for his homework.I guess I'll never satisfy him.He is actually smarter than me. I admire him but I hate the way he digs my stupidity.I am so crushed now.I feel like i am crushed with my own stupidity.How can i make myself worth it for him? I can't even do it because I get annoyed with him easily and say bad things to him.I can't control myself! i'm getting crazy now!Why am I not happy?! I should be happy when I'm with him but I dont feel it! why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????????

under pressure!!!! push it down on me!!! push it down on me! damn! i really feel so much under pressure...emotionally under pressure! i dont even know what should i feel

난 두군두군해.내 한국남자 친구 내일 여기에는올거야.
내가 머리 컷했어.예뻐지고 싶어..ㅋㅋㅋ

(feel free to correct my korean grammar)

나는.....나는...그냥...ㅋㅋㅋ

I got fooled... i am completely floating in the air like a paper torn in to pieces.I swear i'm not going to believe in LOVE